Staring down the barrel of a 45

This is my current favourite song by shinedown, first got into these guys through their single second chance, the lyrics of all their songs are great and this song is just so sad and compelling, it will most likely become my depressive theme song. Has a good message of don't give up when the going gets tough

Shinedown - .45

Send away for a priceless gift
One not subtle, one not on the list
Send away for a perfect world
One not simply so absurd
In these times of doing what you're told
Keep these feelings, no one knows

What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart

And I'm staring down the barrell of a .45 (.45)
Swimming through the ashes of another life (another life)
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrell of a .45

Send a message to the unborn child
Keep your eyes open for a while
In a box high upon a shelf
Left for you, no one else
There's a piece of a puzzle known as life
Wrapped in guilt, sealed up tight

What ever happened to the young man's heart
Swallowed by pain as he slowly fell apart

And I'm staring down the barrell of a .45 (.45)
Swimming through the ashes of another life (another life)
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrell of a .45

Everyone's pointing their fingers
Always condemning me
Nobody knows what I believe
I believe

And I'm staring down the barrell of a .45 (.45)
Swimming through the ashes of another life (another life)
No real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrell of a .45

And I'm staring down the barrell of a .45 (.45)
And I'm swimming through the ashes of another life (another life)
There is no real reason to accept the way things have changed
Staring down the barrell of a .45

R.E.S.P.E.C.T

It has been recently bought to my attention that the JJJ hottest 100 of all time this year did not feature many female artists. So I thought I would share my top 10 female artists and songs.

In now particular order:

Macy Gray - I Try: Her voice is so different and many think its not that good but I love it and this song has such a good message

No Doubt - Don't Speak: Just a great song and quite sad I always belt this out when I hear it

Aretha Franklin - Respect: What can I say other than WOW! Her voice is absolutely amazing and can not be copied this song has such a good meaning behind it to respect women and I respect her for doing this.

Regina Spektor - Samson: I love so many of her songs but this one is probably on of my faves, it is such a sweet love song about a couple wrapped around the old biblical story of Samson and Delilah.

Garbage - When I grow up: This was my theme song long ago, such a nice song about growing up and living your dreams.

Santogold - LES Artistes: One of my current favourite songs, just such a great beat and lyrics and her voice is amazing.

Paramore - Decode: Written for the twilight movie, such a great love song and sums up that movie perfectly, it almost makes me cry about a love that shouldn't be (the song not so much the movie)

The Distillers - City of angels: One of my favourite punk bands even though I don't listen to them that much anymore, i love Brodie's voice and the hint of whining it has really suits this sort of music

M.I.A - Paper Planes: Only song of hers I really like, espeically the ALL WANNA DO IS *BANG BANG BANG* Such a catchy song

Angus and Julia Stone - Private Lawns: I love these guys and Julia singing is just amazing on this track they both have such lovely voices.

Honourble mentions also go to:
Donnas
Dresden Dolls/ Amanda Palmer
Le Tigre/Bikini Kill
Spice Girls (sure they may suck but they did a lot for music)
Britney Spears/Cristina Aguleria (same as above)
Pink
Cher
Bjork
Sara Barilles

and I could go on

Lessons Learned

So at the moment i am obsessed with this song by Matt and Kim, Lessons Learned off the album Grand

Tape holds things that cannot stick
and keep leftovers in the fridge
while lessons learned go down the drain
I can't believe in everything
all the bad names gone
and the good ones were all wrong

and so I stayed up all night
slept in all day
this is my sound
thinking about tomorrow won't change how I feel today

Never let your mark erase
'cause broken legs can be replaced
two steps to the finish line
three sips till I finish mine
a straw will always suck it out
close your eyes and use your mouth
and tell me about your song

And so I stayed up night
slept in all day
this is my sound
thinking about tomorrow won't change how I feel today

i particularly like the chorus as i can relate to it and it just sends a good message about living in the moment and not caring what the consequences are.

The Media

Okay so on this day both Micheal Jackson and Farrah Fawcett died

Now is it just me or does it seem like Farrah's death is getting overshadowed by Micheal's. Now don't get me wrong I saddened by the death of them both but i just feel sorry for Farrah when she has been battling cancer for three years and even made a movie about and was even going to marry her long time lover Ryan O'Neil.

I watched the news Micheal got about 15 mins of rememberence Farrah got about 3. I just think its bad on the media when two pop icons recognised for two different things don't get the same treatment, sure we all knew Farrah was going to die soon and Micheal was unexpected but i think it would just be the right thing if they both got the same treatment.

this is why i mostly try to avoid the news. but may they both rest in piece

The fire below the sink

You think your life sucks
But I'm telling you are not alone
You can't grasp the future
If you haven't learnt to take hold of the past
This feeling inside won't last
Just remember the past, live the present and brace for the future





so I came up with this little thing the over day, it had something about holding on to a wheel and tying that into the past and future, but i can't remember it so i just wrote this, now I am going to explain my weird dream i had last night.

Well I can't quite remember how it all started but I was at my brothers house (only it wasn't his actually house) and for some reason I was told to light a fire under the sink in a meat tray, I don't think this was actually my brother but someone who turned into him later. Anyway i was giving exact instructions not to burn it too high and how to fuel it. Turns out this "Brother" (I can't remember if he had changed at this point) comes back and yells at me because I had burned the paint or something of the pipe under the sink and wasn't using the correct paper or whatever for the fire. Now the next bit I am certain was my brother, anyway after that whilst still in his kitchen i notice a jigsaw puzzle on the floor which i start to do at a rapid speed, but not only do i keep making mistakes it seems that although the pieces fit perfectly more and more "appear" and have to be placed around the border. The jigsaw is on a wooden board and by the time i am finished i have filled the board with jigs and can't fit anymore. This is where my brother informs me to stop because he is ready to go out for tea (apprently we are going out for tea and then i am going out with mates to get drunk and he is going somewhere else) so he is getting ready and leaves me with his roommate (who is actually his real life room mate who i have only met once. So we talk and its really awkward just cause we don't know what to say, so i go back to playing with the fire and throwing yellow, what seemed like tissue paper into it. my brother comes back and helps me and then we decide to leave as we are leaving i am woken from the dream from my phone ringing.

whats weirder about this dream is i was awake at early 9am, then fell back to sleep and woke up again at about 9:45 now what is weird is the dreamed seemed like 2 hours long but instead it was only about 30-45mins. so it was playing doubletime in my head but comprhending at normal speed. ODD!

anyway Adam out

just some random writing

The chip on your shoulder, well it matches your eyes
When I look into them I see exactly what I despise
They can tear me apart or turn me to stone
Gone is the glimmer in which they shone.
What I despise most of all is you.

(Currently listening to Matt & Kim - Grand (album))

let it begin

So i finally decided to create a blog. Why you may ask, well because i am bored and have nothing better to do, through this i will post my random writings up and general observations i may have, mainly it will just be a tool for writing any stories, poems, songs i may write. this way they will always be on the intehwebs and in one spot rather than on my computer and risking the case of losing

if you choose to read them that's up to you. so enjoy what lies ahead and look both ways before crossing the street